Ever wonder why not me??
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
E very now and then I think it is so unfair that some people discover real love when others don’t. That some people have fairy tale beginnings or endings and butterflies when they look into each others’ eyes and goose bumps when they try to steal a kiss and cute little nicknames in bed, while others have bad dates, unreciprocated love and lonely nights with a pint of ice cream and lifetime.
And then I think I am being self-centered, because not having a girlfriend isn’t nearly as unjust as people dying from diseases (AIDS, T.B…) or living in violent cities (Darfur- among many other places) or generally just being miserable and depressed.
And then I hear a certain song – and every time it gets me. I become all tearful, intoxicated with thoughts of romantic outings or spontaneous adventures and having someone to dance with in my bedroom when “our” song is playing (I know its silly, but it is very cute) and that really incredible energy creeping down my spine caused by sweet kisses on my neck, all comforting and teasing at once.
So I give myself half the song to really take in a combination of hope and longing, before I snap myself out of it and move on.
And then I think I am being self-centered, because not having a girlfriend isn’t nearly as unjust as people dying from diseases (AIDS, T.B…) or living in violent cities (Darfur- among many other places) or generally just being miserable and depressed.
And then I hear a certain song – and every time it gets me. I become all tearful, intoxicated with thoughts of romantic outings or spontaneous adventures and having someone to dance with in my bedroom when “our” song is playing (I know its silly, but it is very cute) and that really incredible energy creeping down my spine caused by sweet kisses on my neck, all comforting and teasing at once.
So I give myself half the song to really take in a combination of hope and longing, before I snap myself out of it and move on.
*hug*
as someone in the former category, i can tell you honestly that for the 1st 25 years i was in the latter.
today is just one of those days.